Ministry, Work, Love, and Life

I have discovered the joy that is Phantom of the Opera. having worked at a video store, you would think it would have been one of the first musicals I had seen; Grease was the first. It goes to show you, association contributes greatly to personality. So, I missed Thanksgiving with all of my families: Hawkins, Lozano, Rev, and biological. I’m still recovering, but I have to get the Lifeboat worked on before returning to post. The past 6 days were filled with rest and self-medication.

  More self-medication than rest, and a little Phantom, too. Had the house to myself, except the animals, who insisted on not sleeping, so I medicated some more, to hardly any avail. Also watched Batman Begins, and nailed the age-old question of my generation”Who is the best Batman?”. The answer is hands-down, Christian Bale. Just a little more normal than Keaton, yet still eccentric; less perfect than Kilmer, yet still attractive. ok, enough of that.

   I think I’ll go to the park after my car’s done. I was quite proud of myself for getting the place, mostly cleaned up, especially having the Crud. Not that I could sleep. Anyway, I’m almost done. It’s time for a break before it gets cold again. And I need exercise. Also, a friend has reappeared, for which i am very thankful.

Numbers 6:24-26 The Lord bless you and keep you;

25 the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you;

26 the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.

I know everything I’ve been the last few weeks, thus far, has been an effort by satan to render me useless;I’m sorry to say it worked.

  Especially since I’ve hatched my new plan, I have been in the worst funk about things. Although I know the war is already won, my battles grow so close together that it’s hard to remember what, exactly, I am up against at any given moment. Every day that I fail to act is another day closer to the fall. I know this and have experienced it many times, yet here I am again.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.                                                                          1 COR 10:13

The more I am tempted to give up, the more I want to fight, the more I know I need to surrender. The more I try to open up to people, the more i seem to shut down when they respond. The more I try to keep in touch, the further away my friends pull. I know I’m going the right direction;if I wasn’t, I wouldn’t have so much difficulty.

Ephesians 3

14For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, 15from whom every family^[c] in heaven and on earth is named, 16that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith–that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, 19and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

20Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.  Good night