Friday was our last day of remodeling, better known as the Grand Reopening. Yay! After parting ways with the crew and collecting what seemed to be 100 contacts, even though it was only 5, I left the store.I also got all my new job info. I get three day weekends, I just am not definite on which three days, yet.
So, yeah, these days will be a new experience, hopefully as exciting as the last 90 days, without the drama. Looking back, I realize I brought most of it on myself. Martha keeps asking me when my schedule starts, though I don’t know why. I have a feeling that she wants me to watch the kids more. Hmmmm. My plan was actually to stay away from home just the same. And then, there’s the Utah plan. Anyway, we’ll see how everything pans out.
Pizza party at Rev today. Everyone likes the new do;sometimes, even I like it. We are growing faster and more godly every week, and I find myself more outgoing each time. We’re mostly getting the small kids, though.
So, that’s it. La, la, la.
Weekly Recap:
Sunday-Church was awesome. Had a whole new experience of God and His great mercies. I was excited to see so many people at church, especially new folk. We had quite a few kids and all were very attentive. Work was, well, work.
Mundayne-was anything but. I gave one of the guys a ride home, so we could go for a friendly little horse-ride. The plan was to ride for about an hour, go home, get some sleep, go back to work. Try a ten second ride. I couldn’t get my shoe off at first, my ankle was so swollen;it took about half an hour of ice to get there. The guy who owned the horse was probably more traumatized than me; I made it home by 2, took a shower and a nap, and when I woke up, Martha was home. I had to crawl to the stairs, and yell up at her, to which she freaked out because I was yelling and crying. I cannot even begin to imagine what a broken bone could feel like. Thank God for her. She went to ARC and found some crutches for me, while i called friends to see if they happened to have any.
So, got the crutches and called for a ride to work. Of all people, Greg. While I have no right to judge anyone, and he did pick me up for work, I was already spending too much time with him. This came to a head by the end of the week. So, while I’m incapable of walking, he’s the nicest guy ever. By the end of the night, I was walking, albeit notwell. He drops William off, then me.End of day.
Tues-While I was walking, I was still not able to drive. And now sore from the crutches. At least I got a workout. Asked Greg to pick me up again.Picked William up.Work. Home
Wed- I’m driving again.Get to work, work for an hour, neither of the boys show up. normal day.Home Lots of Advil.Out very late. Work.
Thurs.-Total turnaround. After I noticed that Greg came in without William, I asked where he was, to which Greg replied, “He didn’t answer the door”. Ok, whatever. Then, William comes in. Long story short, William won’t talk to me even when I talk to him directly, then insults my relationship with God, and Greg, while I’m standing there. To somebody else. Before I got excited about defending myself, I asked Greg if he had talked to him. “No, why?” I didn’t want to start anything between them, so I just said I was curious.
Maybe that’s why he won’t talk to me, either. William continues his rampage like a coward;finally, I asked him what the Bible says about those who put themselves in a place of judge to others. He wasnt very private about his complaints, so I decided to do this publicly. Ghost town. Everyone cleared the aisles, like we were gonna fight or something.
It was really wierd, and I know I got carried away, and I know I let my frustration go too long. And then, the realization: he was right. He wouldn’t talk to me, and I couldn’t talk to Greg, and these are just excuses. Long day. I left at 7. Others stayed til noon.
Friday-supposed to be a day off, but we worked. Cold shoulder from Greg until Mike made us work together. I ask what’s wrong. Me? I’m fine. Cold shoulder from William. Mike, the boss, sings some old romance song, while doing a striptease;can you die from embarrassment? Overheard the wrong conversation between Greg and another co-worker about me and an act that will never happen. For some reason, I still asked him if he’ll work on my car. Mke took us to breakfast, I got my taxes done.Came home and watched Battlestar.
The rest of Saturday I worked on my relationship with God and licked my wounds.
Today, taught 5 kids, and helped with setup. went shopping and visited with Eriin’s nurse at the LNJ.
I’m still getting over some things that were said in the past week, and surpisingly, some of it said by Traci. Not that we’re the best of friends, but I expected more from her.
Anyway, this is my failing sense of self-reliance. Time for God to take over. The lesson fr the week;funny you should ask. Unconditional love to those who harm you in various ways, real or imagined. I am a victor in Christ.
Oh, the tragedy! This one involves everything. I have learned a few things since last post.
1. Don’t trust someone to change for you, no matter how “right” you are or how wrong you think they are. Bottom line is, they don’t have to follow your requests. Accept the fact that sometimes, you just don’t get your way. That doesn’t mean to join them in their filth.
2. Not everyone shares your beliefs. In fact, I am the odd man out. I have been spending my breaks with the same person for a couple of weeks, and all of a sudden, we’re apparently seeing each other. Everyone else says it’s a good match, and wonders why I don’t pursue it. I cannot get “involved” with someone who doesn’t share my moral values, but they can’t understand that.
3. Patience is a virtue. Same guy offers to check my car out, yet never returns my calls. He’s also been acting different since people suggested that we look “cute” together. And then the bombshell. He tells me it’s lunchtime, and he’s going to his car. which he usually does, no problem. He asks if I’m coming, knowing that I do my “quiet time” at lunch. I told him what he already knew, and he goes, “Fine!” I should’ve just left it where it was, but I’m still learning. “God is always first for me” was what I heard myself say. Maybe not very tactful, but it’s the truth.
I had my quiet time with God, and, the message I got was “you know this isn’t right.” Yes, I knew. I should have stayed inside. I shouldn’t spend more time with him than absolutely necessary. I shouldn’t feed the relationship. After all, we’re not on the same page, so to speak. What did I do? I went out to his car and we finished the movie we started at first break. Nothing happened, of course, but next time, there’s not gonna be a possibility, either.
4. Do not be unequally yoked. Basically, don’t spend more time with unbelievers than with believers. No matter what the attraction factor. Don’t feed the wrong relationships.Of course, this is a difficult thing to do because all of my godly friends and I are on different schedules.
Ok, so I repented of all the things I have done, still have a heart, not bitter. Better understanding of what God wants for me. I can wait. Love shouldn’t be forced. Glory to God, who protects me even in stupidity.
